thought about it. I've always been kind of socially awkward. The quiet girl
that didn't know how to make friends. Some of the reasons behind that aren't
necessary to this story....
> Anyway lets jump ahead...I became a mother
at the young age of 15. I married at 16 and had my second child at 17. My
marriage soon fell apart and I found myself in and out of obsessive and abusive
relationships. I was young and hadn't even had a chance to figure out who I
was. There I was, wandering through life, just getting by. Fast forward a bit
further.....I'm now 32 years old, a single mom of 3 teenagers and an Autistic
> I had seen some postings about Derby tryouts. The girl I had
started ordering Scentsy from had little tid bits of info posted on Facebook
from time to time. I was too chicken to do something like that. It just wasn't
like me and my anxiety kept me at bay. Anyway, I thought things were finally
looking up for me. I had a full time job, had recently moved to be closer to my
boyfriend and thought maybe for once I had gotten this right.....NOPE!!
> I sunk into a deep depression. I had no desire to do anything!! But
like always I had to think about my kids. As bad as the pain was I had to keep
pushing forward. I had no real friends, no support system, no social circle. I
had devoted my life to being a mom, sometimes it felt like a lousy one, but
that's all I knew. Then one day I became so angry at myself for what my life
had become, so angry for being anxiety ridden, so angry for always making
excuses as to why I couldn't have fun. Why couldn't I be like all the other
women around me????? And then it clicked! I messaged Abbi about Derby!
I needed an outlet. Something that I could do for myself without someone
telling me no. Something I could sink all my frustrations, hurt, self doubt,
anxiety, pain, and stress into. I needed to get into shape physically AND
mentally. Why wouldn't this work? Why couldn't I be a part of something
> Well I have stepped out of my comfort bubble.....I'm trying
this....I'm doing this.....
> And this is just the beginning of my